Sunday, November 13, 2011

We Are On Cloud 9...

The most amazing thing I have ever seen in my entire life was our little one's heart beating for the first time. Although we have been pregnant quite a few times now this is the first time we have seen a heart beat.
Although the doc had told us to wait until Halloween to take a test...let's be honest there was no way I was going to wait until then. I took a test the Thursday before and it immediatly showed positive. I was so so so excited!! I took two more just to be safe and then called the doc.
We have since had my HCG bloodwork done 3 times all of which came back more than doubling each time. Last Thursday we had our first ultrasound just to check things out and make sure everything was ok. The doc was amazed when she saw our little peanut had a heartbeat. I love love love our PA, she is amazing!! She then told us that she thinks the heart may have started beating that same day! I couldn't help but feel that our little peanut is just as anxious as we are and couldn't wait to start growin and moving on to the next step.
We are due July 5th right now but that may change along the way. We couldn't be more excited about this little one and pray constantly this one is here to stay! :)

Monday, October 31, 2011

How do people make it through life without a sister??

Jenna and I started out so different it was like night and day. She was born with stark black hair and I was as blonde as they come...she loved to run around looking homeless and my hair always had to be done. She was a tom boy through and through and I wanted to be in every cheer/dance class my parents could afford.

Alot has changed in the past oh....10 years or so. The girl that use to get on my nerves that I would bribe with zebra ABC gum to go away has become one of my best friends. She grew out of her tom boy stage and has become a gorgeous girl inside and out. I love her to pieces and can't imagine going through life without her. Jenna just had a happy birthday again sweet Nena. I love you so so much!!

Monday, July 25, 2011

Moving On...

This picture doesn't really have anything to do with my post but I thought it was hilarious because this is how I feel being in AZ this summer!!

Well we are moving on with our lives. We spent a few weekends ago with my nephew Talan and his baby sister Charlee. We had so much fun spending every minute with them. Talan has always been my lil buddy so we had a blast going to the movies with Becca, Hunter & Tyler and swimming whenever he wanted. Charlee is 1 and Jason just adored her. You can really tell he is at that stage where he is ready for it to be his turn....I wish it was our turn now.

We are going through miscarriage #3. I am completely at peace with it though. I have a D&C scheduled for Thursday and honestly I am just ready for it to be over with so we can move on. I know our Heavenly Father has a Plan for us and I know Jason and I will be parents one day. I think that is the difference between the 1st and this one. My testimony has grown so much from this trial. I just feel it will be right one day...hopefully one day soon.

We are so blessed with such an amazing group of family and friends. Everyone is so supportive and has really been there for us through all of this. We love you guys!! :)

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

No Such Luck....

I really thought that this month was going to be the month. I dont know why but I let myself get excited. I just finished month 3 but the prego test this morning really let me down. Normally I have talked myself out of getting my hopes up but for some reason this month I was determined to see two little lines on that such luck.

Now I need to find a specialist because things need to get more agressive and my OBGYN who I love is not equiped to handle the next step..whatever that may be.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Positive Thinking.....

This little pill is suppose to be magical...well that is what I have been told but the first go around was a little less Disney and a whole lot of nothing. I'm trying to stay positive as we start another round at a higher dosage but I want to hear if any of you have had success and/or lack thereof with this pill.
I have been stubborn and over the last 4 years that Jason and I have wanted kids it has taken me up until now to realize Heavenly Father might be looking for a little assistance from modern medicine. I am a firm believer in "it will happen when it's meant to happen" but after going 4 years we decided it was time we take things up a notch...que...clomid.
The first round didn't make me sick and I didn't experience any of the hot flashes my Dr was warning me about but I am beyond nervous about this pill. I'm just going to try and stay positive and hope for a 2 or 3 in 1 deal. I'm not this point twins, triplets, quadruplets sound wonderful! :)

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Feb 17th 2005

On February 17th Jason and I will be celebrating our 6 year anniversary (hopefully in Sedona). I can hardly believe it has been 6 years.
Last Saturday Jason and I spent the afternoon sitting at home, he on the computer while I read a book. As I was sitting there I realized how much I love that we have had 6 years
to be together just the two of us.
He's my best friend.
He is the one I tell all of my secrets, dreams, and hopes to. He is the one person that puts up with my mood swings and takes such good care of me when I am sick. He is there when I need a shoulder to cry on or someone to laugh with. His love is endless and I don't think I ever realized or appreciated that enough until recently.
It hasn't always been easy going and there were a few sleepless nights but we have worked to make our marriage what it is today and I'm so proud of where we are now.

I don't think that it is a secret that we want to hear the pitter patter of little feet in our home and as soon as possible but I am so grateful for the 6 years I have spent with Jason. He has made me a better person and continues to push me everyday.
I love him so much! Happy (early) Anniversary Honey!! xoxoxoxo

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

It's all part of the job......

Processing residential loans........It occupies the majority of my everyday life and I've been doing it for so long I can't remember what it was like before I started! :) Sometimes....when I can drowned out the sound of my ever ringing telephone or can ignore the constant pop up of another email coming through (on average I answer 150/day) I like to day dream about how nice it was to have a SPRING BREAK when I was young!!

At times I think I can't take another day of this "cube" (I'd like to call it an office but with only 3 walls and all of which are less than 5 feet tall that just isn't realistic)
Then I remember all the memories I've made. Oh yes there are "borrower's" as we call them in the biz that make our jobs worth it....that write you the adorable thank you notes and actually express gratitude for the over time hours you put in to make sure they got into their home on time. There are those that are polite and understanding when I have to ask where all the sudden they got $30k to put down on this new home when their average account balance has been $800 bucks! Then again there are those "other borrowers"...
You know who you are....You are the type of people that answer your phone only to tell me to hold while you scream at your children to be quiet or to pick up their toys. The "borrowers" that answer the phone and tell me "well you've caught me at a bad see I'm in the tub right now so can I call you back?" Honestly please don't!! If you are the type of person that picks up the phone while in the tub and decides its a good idea to tell me about it... I'd prefer if we correspond via email if you don't mind. You know who you are creepy man that I dared to call again to try and give you a list of missing items only to be told you were on the toilet!! Honestly I started to wonder at that point if you live in your bathroom!?! I get that not everyone knows proper phone etiquette but then there are those that are either completely misguided or even flat out rude.
Come on now...I get that you have an ok credit score (mid 600s) and let's face it in this economy that is an accomplishment but come honestly think you should not have to provide your assets or pay stubs?!?! Really??? No... you're right... we love to give money to people without verifying if they have the means to ever pay it back....please let me be the one to write that $300,000 check for you now sir.
It's isn't always the "borrowers" fault. I don't want to place all the blame on a single group of people. There is of course the managers/owners I work under. I like to refer to them as the Needy/Greedy :) Over the past 6 years I have gathered quite an astonishing list...Two in jail, one on the run, and the other I affectionately nicknamed the Ice Queen.
Despite all of that here I am everyday...but now at least I have a "cube" with a VIEW!!
~It's the little things in life that make it worth it~

Monday, January 3, 2011

Finishing up 2010....

Jason gave me the trip of my dreams in Sept....we headed off to New York for a few days. I was just blown away with how beautiful the architecture was!!! I think more than 75% of the memory on our camera had to be of these amazing parks plopped down in the middle of the concrete skyscrapers.
Our first stop was to see Devin in Hudson Valley. We had such a fun time seeing where and what he has been doing the past 2 years....
I can't get enough of these buildings!!!!!
Love this boy!!!
One of the highlights of 2010 had to be the girls trip Mom, Becca, Jenna and I took to CA!! We had so much fun shopping and laughing and running around Knotts Berry Farm!! I can't wait for our next girl trip!!
Now on to 2011....I promise I will keep better tabs on this whole blog thing. Stay tuned!! :)